~Kien~

We're moving!!

2009-07-12T23:00:00.002+08:00

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Bruce Lee played Ping Pong

2008-12-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

Dual...Heroes Season 3 last episode

2008-12-17T21:27:00.003+08:00

On the sixth day, God created Man in his own image.
Now it’s up to us to figure it all out. Right... wrong… good… evil.
In each of us is the capacity to decide what drives our actions.
So what is it, then, that makes some choose selflessness, the need to devote themselves to something greater, while others know only self-interest, isolating themselves in a world of their own making?
Some seek love, even if unrequited, while others are driven by fear and betrayal.
There are those who see their choices as dark proof of God’s absence while others follow a path of noble destiny.
But in the end, good, evil, right or wrong…what we choose is never what we really need.
For that is the ultimate cosmic joke. The real gift that God has left behind.

There is good and there is evil… right and wrong… heroes and villains.
And if we’re blessed with wisdom, then there are glimpses between the cracks of each where light streams through.
We wait in silence for these times when sense can be made…when meaningless existence comes into focus, and our purpose presents itself.
And if we have the strength to be honest, then what we find there staring back at us is our own reflection, bearing witness to the duality of life.
That each of us is capable of both the dark and the light… of good and evil… of either, of all.
And destiny, while marching ever in our direction, can be rerouted by the choices we make. By the love we hold onto and the promises we keep.

10’ 12”

2008-11-29T18:18:00.007+08:00

如果你听到这首歌，觉得很熟悉的话，恭喜你，我们都是那个时代的人。
为什么歌名是十分十二寸呢？那是因为 Ah Lam 把那个时代很红的歌曲串烧在一起唱，为时十分钟十二秒。很有意思咧。
那个时代，应该是 1980 到 1990 吧，大概有十年。
那个时代发生的事情，都比较怀念。听回那个时代的歌曲，除了回味，过后还不时在脑海里像电话铃声般响个不停。
是什么原因不知道，因为以后发生的事情，都觉得像变质了的牛奶，喝起来怪怪的。
所以那个时代的歌曲，是一部时光机，可以带你逃离现在的鬼生活，回到那个很有归属感的年代。虽然，这只不过是暂时。
也许，以一个小孩的身份来度过一段时光，才是我们心灵所向往的。
因为思想单纯，年纪尚幼小，每天不会去想伤脑筋的大人事情，日子过得多么愉快。
肚子饿了，会有食物摆在眼前。玩到累了，可以回家睡觉。睡醒了，可以马上跑去邻居家玩。
懂得愈多，心里所筑的枷锁就会愈坚固，想逃也逃不了。常以为是这是命运所使，其实不然，是自己输给了自己。

It's coming

2008-11-20T23:00:00.003+08:00

My company's retrenchment finally kicked start yesterday. The news that 53,000 staff to be cut worldwide has rocked everybody's life here.
The retrenchment for our business group, Global Wealth Management, first took place in the front/middle offices yesterday and today. The process is very simple and quick.
Firstly the staff will receive phone call and will be told to proceed to the meeting room., then he/she will see the manager and HR there. After a few minutes of discussion, the staff will go back, pack personal stuff and surrender his/her staff pass. He/she will be monitored by somebody from Control. An IT guy will help remove the staff's access to the company system and shut down everything. The whole process must be finished within 2 hours as required. Then finally the staff will be escorted out of office by the Control person. The actual process may vary a bit because I haven't experienced that yet! Sigh...
Many people cried when they saw their colleagues packing their personal stuff, because their colleagues were just gone like that in a sudden. And the most frightening part is when you are waiting anxiously for the phone call, like a prisoner waiting for death execution. You have no idea whether you would be the next. In this case, no matter what, we should be well prepared ourselves first. If it's coming, so be it, we can't change it.
Heard that there would be another round of retrenchment in Feb next year, just after we finish celebrating Chinese New Year. It sounds cruel, isn't it? Sigh....

Change

2008-11-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

When we embrace what lies within, our potential has no limit.
The future is filled with promise; the present rife with expectation.
When we deny our instinct, and struggle against our deepest urges, uncertainty begins.
Where does this path lead? When will the changes end?
Is this transformation a gift or a curse?
For those who fear what lies ahead, the most important question of all: Can we ever really change what we are?

~~ Heroes season one, episode "The Fix"

未曾经历，如何懂得

2008-11-18T23:38:00.003+08:00

Dow Jones Industrial Average 2008

20年前，日本爆發泡沫經濟危機，金融、產業及一般民生陷入絕境，是財經界一場日本病。

當時，美國加緊向日本施壓，在日本艱難時刻，迫日本改變這樣，放棄那樣，樣樣要做到合美國標準又合美國心意。

日本的金融與企業一片慘狀，翻看舊時報刊，當時，分析家90%以上批死日本從此沉沒，也有高興日本完蛋的大批文章見報。

只有香港知名的評論家何亮亮，他深知日本人的深層底力，在人人叫喊日本沉沒的時刻，他獨唱異議，說日本不日克服艱難，將再次站回財經世界的前方來。

過后，何亮亮的話說對了。

日本人克服了几近絕望的金融災難，又返回經濟大國的前方來了。

這回是美國陷入金融危難，一下子拖累全球一同受害。在先進國當中，越來越多人在問，日本有難，日本人沒向外國求救，也沒因為日本發生金融病就拖累世界各國陪著病，為什麼美國金融界病了，美國人自己治不好自己的病，又再禍害天下？

日本當年的金融危機，原因是銀行利息低到几近零的地步，美國的金融有病，卻因為美國過份用外來錢支撐自己表面好看，其實虛空的生活。

更重要的，是日本怎麼搞金融經濟，始終不放棄技術與製造產品的傳統生活技能。今日，連一枝原子筆，仍然有日本國產品，而且品質最佳。

美國早就不重視雙手造物這麼老土的生存技藝，美國製造的物品已經不多，原子筆早就不製造了，要不是涉及國防安全問題，可能原子彈也委托其他國家製造了。

日本人因此自力克服艱難，而且不拖累天下。昨天，日本病過了，今天，美國病重，明天，輪到誰？

~~ 游枝：朝日隨筆 -- 金融界的美國病(9) (www.chinapress.com.my @ 18 Nov 2008)

许多美国人都想成为 Warren Buffet 第二，通过股市迅速致富，而不是脚踏实地去白手起家。
没有坚持和要求，想通过时间的考验是很难的，像 CYMA 广告所说：“未曾经历，如何懂得。”
来得太快的财富，其实是灾难的开始……

Investing For Dummies

2008-11-11T01:40:00.008+08:00

不舍得你 - 吕方

今天 7 点起床，陪女友吃早餐，然后送她到 Gombak mrt，回家之前还买了 Mr. Bean 的豆花汤圆，吃完了就继续睡觉。
不用上班的日子真的很悠闲，喜欢做什么就做什么。下午去了 Bugis 逛逛、拜拜神，希望家人健康平安，自己也能心想事成。
买了一本书叫做 Investing For Dummies，亦即写给 "sei chun" (死蠢) 的投资书籍，作者是一名 MBA，里面有关于各种不同类型的投资，从股票到房屋地产，由浅入深，相当的 hands-on。买之前考虑了蛮久，因为 Dummies 这个字眼好像不是很称自己，我应该不属于 "sei chun" 的行列吧。不过，当读了几页的内容后，才发觉自己懂的其实不多，只算是略懂而已。在银行里做了四年，学到的只是皮毛而已，真惭愧。投资的范围也太广了，各种类型的投资都能帮你赚钱，是一门活到老学到老的游戏。
其实现在 inflation rate 这么高，bank saving rate 和薪水的 increment rate 又这么低，不学点投资的技巧又怎么能够生存呢？虽然说投资这种东西不是包赢的，有时糊里糊涂的人会赢钱，很会计算的人反而输到损手烂脚，不过懂得多比较可以避免踩到地雷，你比较会知道自己在买什么，我也不想等到年老时把毕生的储蓄付之一炬。

Noble Group 在 2006 年的电视广告 —— Hands On Supply Chain Management，蛮有趣的。Hands on 很重要，动手做的过程中会加深对掌握技能的印象，比凭空想象和空口说痴话好多了。所以凡事都要动手做，你才能了解当中的"苦"。

Is it really forever?

2008-11-08T22:46:00.004+08:00

Watching English Premier League (EPL) live match is not an easy thing, especially when you have been a loyal supporter for the team for many years. When things are not in your team's favor, you may grumble all the way till the match finishes. If the team lose badly, you may throw the TV controller away, or hit the sofa so loud that the neighbor knocks your door for complaint.

You gotta accept ups and downs, which they happen in our life as well. No one can always win. No one is always the losing side too. This is the universal rule God always convey to us through real life experience, isn't it? However, to understand it is easy, to do it is a bit difficult, at least for me.

Maybe this is a game designed by God for those people with low EQ. Isn't it funny to see these people throwing their tempers just because of a soccer ball? I always say this to myself after I have calmed down.

Well, okay, I'm just a human, with inadequate evolution yet.

A hero, or a villain?

2008-11-07T17:20:00.005+08:00

Have started my 2 weeks compliance leave since this Tuesday. It's a good and necessary break after going through the hustles to earn a good living.
While having my lunch at the nearby kopitiam these few days, I can always find people who are in their mid 30's or 40's sitting there aimlessly with a cup of coffee or tea on the table. Are they serving their compliance leave too? Or they have lost their jobs due to the recent market turmoil?
Life is not easy. The same goes for being a good man.
Now I realize that it's a luxury to live alone and never bother what's going on around you. People tend to exert pressures on you to live up to their expectation. You just can't escape from your current post and do whatever you want.
Thirty years ago life might be a lot easier. Many people claim that we have much better living standard now. We have Internet, eye-catching handphones, mp3 players, cameras, iMac and many many other great millennial innovations. But if we ask our parents or grandparents, I'm sure they would rather live in the old times. Nowadays the food are toxic, the water and air are polluted, the weather is unpredictable, the government and public debt are unprecedented, money are getting smaller.....
The 2-week break is helpful. When you are not working and staying at home with your mind floating in the air, you tend to ponder the real thing you should pursue in life. The question "Is this really what you want?" always cross my mind and it could bombard me the whole day.
Okay, I need a break. Yes, I'm having it right now.....

It's all happening so fast. My life is a speeding train and I'm not sure where it's headed. One thing is certain, I've been given a second chance, touched by God and I've got to believe that he has a purpose for my life. So why am I filled with self-doubt? Plagued by demons, real and imaginary? Frightened by the challenges ahead, and haunted by the ghosts of my past? Does God know what I am? Do I? Am I an angel, or a monster? A hero, or a villain? And why can't I see the difference?

~~ Heroes season 3, chapter 5 - Angels and Monster

The Superhero

2008-11-02T11:47:00.002+08:00

Do you always think of being the superhero for yourself or your love ones?
Well, you have a chance to do it now, in www.photofunia.com

Crestfallen

2008-10-24T23:55:00.002+08:00

When you are knocking the door for exit, you suddenly feel the world is so silent. You would think this is a nightmare. When you discover you are not the only one, but millions of them out there, it is catastrophic.....

Dying of the light

2008-10-23T22:43:00.001+08:00

In every journey, the traveler must ask: was the right path taken?
Many roads are long and winding, filled with those who have lost their way.
Some forge their own course, guided by faith, seeking not a location, but a kindred soul.
Others step together, finding safety in the arms of another.
A few remove themselves from the trail to avoid the path of temptation.
But those who watch the track too closely fail to see where it led them, and are often all too surprised by their destination.

十月合唱团

2008-10-01T20:38:00.003+08:00

找了许久终于找到了，十月合唱团唯一的专辑《红红的太阳》。出了这张专辑以后，十年过去了，依然没有听到他们的消息，仿佛人间蒸发了。也许这是中文音乐的现实，band 很难在中文乐坛里生存。
原来也有人像我这样痴痴地在网上寻找这张专辑。由于十月合唱团知名度不高，时间也相差蛮久了，像HMV、百度和 VeryCD 等都找不到。就在心灰意冷时，最近无意中发现有人把它放在 RapidShare，不过 RapidShare 也有 limit 的，必须试了几十次才成功。
这个世界真的会有奇迹。
像周星驰在《食神》里所说：“像发了场梦似的。这证明香港是个神奇的地方，只要你肯努力，梦想会成真。”
只有曾经经历过，才会相信吧。

红红的太阳

2008-09-27T12:18:00.005+08:00

Oh, it has been 3 months already since I wrote my last blog. Honestly I'm very lazy to write though I have many things would like to share with you guys. Nevertheless, I do always visit my friends' blogs to find out their recent updates.
What has happened to me drastically during these 3 months is just that my tummy has grown threefold like a penguin. My appetite for nice food is still the same as ever. The only difference is I'm not as active as last time in sports anymore.
The recent financial turmoils have seen some banks and financial institutions collapsed all of a sudden. The investors' hard-earned money have also vanished overnight. Nobody knows when we will hit the bottom and some people are even living without acknowledging the danger.
It's crazy and a very painful lesson but it's essential to bring us back to the reality of world, where the things are correctly valued and the money flowing in the market are gold standard, not fake money.

Viva la Vida

2008-06-28T00:06:00.018+08:00

Viva la Vida - Coldplay

原来不知不觉已经一个月多没写 Blog 了，时间过得真快。
这段没写 Blog 的日子，头脑也算是一片空白的，忙与盲啊……哎。

两个星期前和一班相处蛮久的 colleagues 到印尼的 Bintan 去休闲和见识见识一下。还好住的是 Angsana Resort 里最豪华的 suite，还有优美的沙滩和海景，那个周末过得特别写意，把所有烦恼忘得一干二净。

我们的 Angsana Resort suite

由于 Angsana 是属于比较昂贵的 resort，它的地点比较偏僻，所以沙滩没什么人，很宁静，你想做什么都可以。

小池塘

Angsana 内的 cafe

房内设置

在 Kelong 海鲜餐馆吃晚餐时拍到的，没看过这么大的 lobster……

一，二，三，四，五……

蔚蓝的天空

女友提前送的生日礼物，主题是多运动和 keep fit — Mizuno 跑步鞋，Adidas 运动背心和短裤。是的，运动很重要，所以开始恢复暂停已久的羽毛球，也学习打篮球和多跑步。多运动，头脑也转得比较快，身心愉快，哈哈。

最近工作量减少了，总算能过些 work-life balance 的生活。Viva la Vida！

How can I bowl like him?

2008-05-10T15:47:00.001+08:00

Perfect Bowling Skill - The funniest videos clips are here

多一点

2008-04-07T23:30:00.009+08:00

最近身边有些人都换工了，有些也开始心痒痒的，只有少数是雷打都不动的。
这几年内，来的来，去的去，似乎都习惯了这种工作场合的聚散合离。
也许这是好现象，表示新加坡的 job market 还不坏，demand is more than supply。
哎，想太多还是无谓的，最重要是先做好自己的本份，身外事让它置之度外吧。
努力再努力吧，没有什么比这个更实际了。
Office 附近的食物和咖啡，都开始涨价了。一碗肉圆面从 $3.80 变成 $4.20，咖啡由$0.80 变成 $0.90。觉得很快地在 Tampines 再也找不到 $1 以下的咖啡了。再过多几年，也许$1 金币已经不能再用了，可以放入博物馆。
好了，什么都涨价，明年的 bonus & increment 可以向老板要求多一点吗？

Bread 的 Never Let Her Go....找到你喜欢的想做的，就快珍惜快行动吧！

Irrational Exuberance

2008-03-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

The term "new economy" has become, beginning in 2000, a fad in itself.
It appears suddenly as a new name for our hopes and for economic progress due to recent technological advances, notably the Internet, and for our reasons to think that the future growth prospects are ever so brilliant.

~~ Robert Shiller, 2001

夢與淚的交界

2008-03-19T00:20:00.009+08:00

就要天堂

作詞：李雨寰　作曲：李雨寰　編曲：李雨寰　演唱：蘇婭/ 楊乃文 (dmDM)

我的眼在無盡蒼煙中張望
破碎的臉殘留著滄桑的淚光
午夜的風輕柔的撫著我的臉
黎明之前我不願再哭泣

我的心祈求著憂傷的遠去
會在天堂遺忘世間所有絕望
秋天的風吹得我愈來愈迷惘
失落的夢會在什麼地方(會不會在天堂)
乘著陽光　遠離這塵世

望著天　那一抹深沉的藍好似天堂
美麗而神秘的呼喚
我不再去依戀　過往殘缺的記憶
就要天堂　我不會再哭泣
我將獨自走向那片黑暗的盡頭
會看到天堂　在夢與淚的交界裡
我獨自走向憂傷的終站　就要天堂　
永遠永遠不會再有孤寂

很怀念 dmDM 这个台湾组合，只可惜他们的出现很短暂。刹那的光辉不代表永远，在梦与泪的交界里，我是否该选择一条较安稳的方向呢？
最近常听到 “人不为己，天诛地灭”，这句话是对、是错？

大快人心

2008-03-09T21:45:00.003+08:00

原来现在每个月才写一次 Blog ，忙碌的生活让脑子一片空白。
最近有许多热点新闻。马来西亚的羽球队在全英赛输完，尤其是王牌双打组合古陈，好像很久没拿冠军了，很多时候甚至在前一两 round 就 out 了，一次又一次地伤透国人的心。是因为太快冒起而承受不了名与利所带来的腐蚀吗？真的不知道……
热的还有 English Premier League 和 European Champions League 吧。赛季已开始接近尾声，冠军也慢慢呼之欲出了。Man U 这个赛季受到新老球员接替的冲击，明知老球员状态远不如前，教练还是为了尊重他们而派他们上场，结果害了全队，伤透了全球 fans 的心。
最热的应该是马来西亚大选吧。身为国民却不曾回国去投那神圣的一票，真的很惭愧。以前只有一党独大，要什么有什么，结果近几年国家经济停滞不前，治安败坏，公共设施残旧，公共交通十年如一日，种族不平等，贪污和国家领导层种种丑闻等等，害得国人被外人取笑也只能忍辱吞声。再加上近来通货膨胀，油价几乎每日创新高，人民已在水生火热之中。既然给了机会你却做不来，为何不给机会别人呢？幸好大选来得是时候，人民有机会把那些贪官、懒官和无能官痛痛快快地扫出去，以免浪费纳税人的钱。
这次的大选成绩真的大快人心，时代不同了，样样讲究效率，能者据之，那些愚弄人民的终究会被唾弃。

忙盲茫

2008-02-18T01:00:00.005+08:00

近来工作非常的忙，没什么时间写 Blog，差点连 login password 也忘了。
工作有必要这么忙吗？只是想到工作上有许多东西要改进，这里要改，那里要改，放工后也得抽些时间来写 vba macro。只要能够做到就做吧，至少努力过了，结果会怎样以后才说吧。
运程说属鸡的今年会遇到贵人，会是怎么样的贵人却不得而知。我想，最重要的却是身边要有一个能够不时指点你错误在什么地方的人。很多时候明明是做错了，自己仍然糊里糊涂不知道，直到事情发生了才后悔，白白浪费了宝贵的时间和金钱。不过，由于人与人之间的关系变的肤浅了，并不是每个人都那么慷慨解囊地为你指点迷津，也不是每个人都会乐意地接受别人的意见。
活了这么多年，遇到这种人不多，遇到的我会更加珍惜。

与妳同在

2008-01-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

近来生活上有没有让你乐在其中的东西？
为什么这么问呢？
因为觉得它们都是你存在的意义和动力。
如果生活上许多东西都成了你的负担，你还会继续走下去吗？
以前总觉得身边的人不会因为我的消失而停下来，不会感到悲哀什么的，总而言之就认为我是那么一个不起眼的小人物，不见了也就算了。故以前总是想为什么要因为别人而活着，为什么要做这样做那样去取悦别人，生活很无趣，对未来没有打算。
时过境迁，现在的想法却大相径庭，仿佛眨眼间从一个极端去到了另一个极端。是妳的出现吗？我想是的，还有刚好工作上一些人事的变迁，也加速了心态和想法上的变化。
让身边的人幸福快乐，原来并不是负担，现在却是乐在其中。

** 周末连续打了好几场 squash 和 badminton，过去一个星期所压抑的工作烦恼都发泄出来了，非常愉快。这么有益身心的运动，怎么舍得放弃呢？

新年新希望

2008-01-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

2008 年的第一天就快过去，时间还是一样地滴答没停下。
我神色凝重地看着日历，心想怎么还没感觉到新一年又到来的压力。
Ok 啦，像往年一样，新一年就该 list down 一些 resolutions，这样人生才有意义：

1）去台湾旅行。
2）买 iTouch
3）储蓄 SGD12,000
4）升职加薪
5） Citi GOC 的 BPR award 至少一个
6）看更多书，每个月至少一本
7）考取驾车 licence

好了，就这样吧！希望能够做到……

The great illusion

2007-12-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

In recent years, many people around the world have found it easier to make money from rising asset prices than from working. America's current prosperity depends on unearned wealth, not earned income. For the typical American family, the bulk of that wealth is in housing, which enjoyed big jumps in value. Households have kept the economy going by borrowing freely against the paper gains in the value of their homes.

The surge in share prices in the late 1990s boosted the shareholdings of American households by $7 trillion over four years, equivalent to almost two years' income from employment - without requiring any effort. The value of those shares has since fallen, but the drop has been more than offset by soaring house prices. Since 2000 the value of homes in America has increased by more than $5 trillion, making many Americans feel richer and less inclined to save. But much of this new wealth is just an illusion.

A rise in share prices can, in theory, reflect expected future gains in profits and an increase in economy's productive potential. But rising house prices do not represent an increase in wealth for a country as a whole. They merely redistribute wealth to home-owners from non-home-owners who may hope to buy in the future. Homes are not just assets, they are also a big part of living costs. When the housing prices rise, the capital gain to home-owners is offset by the increased future living costs of non-home-owners. Society as a whole is no better off.

In the long run, the only way to create genuine wealth is to consume less than your income (ie, save) , and invest in real income-creating assets. In a healthy economy, households should spend the income they earn, less whatever they can set aside for the future.....

** from "Economics - making sense of the modern economy"

今天过了一个蛮不错的星期天。打完羽球后，休息一会儿，就和女友跑去 Bugis 拜神，为新的一年祈祷许愿。过后就在附近 shopping，买了一件价廉物美的 Levi's 长袖 T-shirt 和枕头，女友也买了一件米奇 T-shirt，接着到 Starbucks 喝咖啡，吃外面打包的 Tori-Q，看看书，听听音乐，就这样悠哉地过了一个星期天，明天又得上班啦。

2007

2007-12-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

2007 年即将结束，接下来这几天都会有种舍不得的感觉。
这一年似乎发生了许多事情，最大的收获是什么呢？应该就是遇见了 Idy ，我生命中除了母亲外最重要的女人，哈哈。
2007 年对 banking 来说，应该是历史上最恐怖的一年之一。美国的 subprime crisis 让人看到了做事不脚踏实地的后果，未奋斗却先用未来钱，一味盲目地追求快速致富，而忽略了基本功和知识。很多时候空有理想和贪念，却没有实战经验，大洒金钱出去，换来的后果伤害自己不用紧，怕的是还会伤害更多人。
回想起年初所定下的一些目标，并不是每一个都做到，其实觉得蛮对不起自己。为什么这么懒呢？为什么还是这么贪玩？不过呢，2007 年给了我许多的领悟，应该说是让我觉得做起事来更踏实，基础已建得七七八八了，接下来的一年就可大展宏图吧？
之前在报刊读到一篇文章，说到一个人空有做事能力是没用的，只要人家不给机会你，你就没办法发挥和上位，薪水也就漂浮在同样的水平线，随着每年的通货膨胀率不断增加，你在这社会也愈来愈贬值了。哎，你有压力，我有压力，如何懂得把握天时地利人和的确是一门学问。

The first thing necessary to correct an error is to discover it, the next is to admit it, and the last is to avoid it. 性格使然，后两点比较难做到，结果常常累人累己，真是糟透极了……

Human Action

2007-12-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

To live implies action. Action implies choosing, that is, selection and rejection. Every time you select one action, you are rejecting all the other possible actions that you could take. When you decided to come to this lecture, you rejected the possibility of being in other places at this time.

All of our actions imply a choice. We always take that action which we think is going to give us the greatest satisfaction. All action also implies change. It implies that the future can be changed.

What we are constantly trying to do is to exchange something we have for something we prefer. We seek to change the future to the way we would prefer it to be. All human life is an attempt to change the future.

Some people sometimes say that they would like to know the future. For example, they would like to know what the prices are going to be in the stock market next week.
Actually, we do not want to know the future. If you, or I, or anyone could know the future, this would mean it was set and we could no longer act to change it.

All human activity is an attempt to change the future. We have a wide choice of actions that permit us to change the future. If we select the right actions for our purpose, we will produce the future conditions we desire.

All human action also implies imperfection. If we had perfection, there would be no reason to act — no reason to change the future. This means that if we had everything we wanted, there would be no reason to live. When the day comes that you have everything you want, let me know. I shall make arrangements to come to your funeral, because you will then be dead. So do not ever think that we can have perfection, or that we can have everything we want.

Life is a series of choices of actions trying to improve the future, and the future always needs improvement from our point of view. Life is never perfect, but it is subject to change, and it is our hope that our actions will produce changes for the better rather than for the worse.

~~ from Understanding The Dollar Crisis, Percy L.Greaves, 1973

感想

2007-12-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

昨晚临睡前想到了一些东西，想写在 Blog 里，不过经过忙碌的一天后，却绞尽脑汁也想不起来那些要写的东西。没办法，就只好放弃，写些其他的事情。
原来生活上也有许多平时我们觉得想去做的事情，不过却由于懒散、忘记、忙碌等种种原因，不知不觉没做下去了。这些事情看起来都不是很起眼，不必浪费时间，但我总觉得很多时候人生的转折点都与这些不起眼的事情有关。有时侯一个不经意的小动作，就足以影响大局，不仅改变自己，也改变了身边的某些人。所以，忙碌之余，是不是该花点时间想想什么该做、什么不该做呢？
最近的第24届东运会给了我们一些提示，一个国家虽小，只要有心和努力，一定一样能够赢得许多奖牌。反观某些国家面积虽大，天然资源丰富，人材众多，表现却不成正比，非常可惜。
一个是常满足于现状的"kampong 冠军"，一个则是不断追求更好、被说成"kiasu"、"kiasi"的，到底哪一个才是好呢？

包容

2007-12-04T22:58:00.001+08:00

换了新工作后，日子都显得很忙，羽球也少打了许多。
前几天和女友及一班朋友去跑 Standard Chartered marathon ，10 km 用了 1 hr 20 min 40 s ，对一个之前没什么准备的人来说应该是及格吧。
还好没崩溃，不过我知道离 Fit 这个字越来越远了，是年龄的关系吧。

以前单身时比较我行我素，做什么、说什么都没什么顾虑。
现在开始学会了包容和迁就，处处都会学习先为妳着想。
明白最近妳的工作变得辛苦，烦恼比从前多了。
不想见到妳的笑容少了，我会尽力做好自己，时时刻刻都会在妳身边。

幸福

2007-11-19T23:02:00.001+08:00

今天 11 月 19 日是一个很有意义的日子。
终于我可以回到一个很有归属感的地方 — Citigroup 。
很感谢一路上帮助我的 managers 和 colleagues ，没有他们，也许现在我已跌入人生的最低谷。
能够和他们再一起工作真的很开心，一切尽在不言中。

幸福，两个字也许不足够明了其中意义，要亲身体验才能发现它所带给的快乐和满足感。
妳的出现，让我更珍惜生命里的每一分每一秒。虽然还没攀到最高点，我却比从前更有冲劲。
十分期待我们的下一趟旅行 :)

秋天冬天

2007-11-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

打开电脑的 music library，发现里面放的多数是悲伤的歌。
原来这些年来喜欢听的是这一类的歌曲。
有些歌词能够生生地描绘出曾经发生过的往事，历历在目，仿佛它们都是为我度身定造的。
话说回来，时间过了这么久，其实并不是对往事念念不忘，而是忧伤的歌曲往往能够轻易地撩动心中的琴弦。
张震嶽的[秋天冬天] 是前一张专辑[等我有一天]的歌曲，最近才偶然地发现它，非常好听。
热恋时期都不适合听这类歌曲，听多了有点格格不入，不过它仍然是值得推荐的。

充实的周末

2007-11-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

这个星期六和星期天都过得蛮充实，有Pulau Ubin半日游，和朋友们打bowling、庆祝生日兼supper，打羽球，到Ikea看家具，还有在Queensway走走。嗯，身体除了疲惫，流了许多汗水，皮肤也被太阳晒得超痛。不过，说得肉麻点，有妳在一起，这一些又算得什么？
天空下着雨，想起明天还得上班，真sian！美好的时光过得特别快，转眼间必须回到现实世界。
好想时针马上停止，让我享受此刻的安宁……

第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅快
站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感

Direction

2007-11-02T14:00:00.000+08:00

Just read the latest blog of HK actor Louis Koo, I strongly agree with his views. In fact, I like to read his blog everyday. He is not just an actor, he is a great thinker too.

How much you love your job is really depend on how responsible you are in your job. It applies the same in other areas like relationship. In the past, I didn't really show enough enthusiasm in my work, failing to bring significant contribution to my previous company and colleagues. I was fickle-minded, didn't know what I want in my career and often wanted to try this and try that. In the end, it only made me confused and tired without achieving something truly impressive.

But now, I've realised the importance of having a clear direction, which guides you to the destination without taking the wrong and unnecessary paths. The older you grow, the easier you discover your direction and the faster you reach your destination.

** Only 9 more days left before leaving my current bank...the times of turbulence are ending soon.

思念

2007-10-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

思念，我曾认为是很可笑的东西
一个整天忙碌、有好多事情做不完的我，是不可能知道思念的定义
直到最近，思念已成了我日常生活的一种病，一个无法痊愈的病
当大家都在埋头工作时，那颗心却飞到老远去了
想知道那一刻妳在做什么，想知道什么时候可以再见面，想知道下一餐该吃些什么
虽然一通电话，或者一则MSN就可以让心情安定下来，
思念的苦涩却显得妳存在的重要
生活，因为妳，还有那一万吨的思念，才有真实感……

The Destiny

2007-10-26T22:57:00.001+08:00

I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you

I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn something new
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

等

2007-10-21T20:47:00.001+08:00

酷热的夜晚什么也没做
许多东西都丢在一旁
就这样躺着
想着我们这些日子所说过的话做过的事

你说说，我们要不要在一起？
我说我们要在一起
就算妳不确定，想问我一千次一万次
我还是会说我要我们在一起

也许我不会说妳要求的承诺
也许我不会唱妳要听的歌
因为我不是一个浪漫的诗人
如果妳的世界需要一点依偎
妳只要轻轻地呼唤我的名字
我就在妳身边
陪妳每天说笑哭泣
一夜一夜的熬出深深黑眼圈

电影的世界有太多完美的画面
我们的世界也许有很多的不完美
妳不在电影里面
妳就在我身边
这样的画面，已经是最完美
这一刻就等着妳
等着和妳一起写下我们完美的爱情故事
I'll be right here waiting for you.....

答案

2007-10-18T13:31:00.000+08:00

每当看到夜空的星体时，会觉得自己很眇小、很无助。
人是会思考的动物，自己可以决定些什么，可是事情的发生往往却控制不了。
以前念书时由于沉迷于数学世界里，看东西的方式都比较讲究逻辑性和完美化，所以比较执着和固执。当踏入社会后，人与人之间的接触增加了，一加一不再等于二，而是可以有许许多多的答案，是随人的情绪与利益而定的。事情不象人们想象或预测般发生，以前书本里所学习的概念都得放下，不能再带着天真的思想穿梭于黑白灰之间。
每日，人与人之间的相处都会制造出大大小小的事情。有些事情我们很想马上知道答案，可惜常常都是事与愿违。当无法找到答案时，我们都选择了时间，显然时间可以从事情的轨迹教人看出人的心态和决定。这种究竟是逃避，抑或是人的无助呢？我们常说思考，却不能真正掌握自己的命运，思考，其实只是美其名而已。
人类创造了数学，用数学找出自然规律；数学却无法找出人类在想些什么，真悲哀……

无言感激

2007-10-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

最近不知该写些什么好，不是因为生活平淡，而是累得挤不出灵感来。
这个星期应该是蛮开心的，除了过得很充实，还有终于确定可以离开现在的公司，不必浪费时间了。
原来有些东西要等到失去了才会觉得可贵，虽然过程有点曲折，给许多人带来了麻烦，不过，现在却可以清楚知道自己想在什么地方工作，可以怎么发挥自己。
不同的地方有不同的文化，自己比较喜欢在懂得求变、实事求是、醒目，而且与世界并进的地方做工，这也是一直以来不想会去 Malaysia 工作和生活的主要原因。也许是巨蟹座的关系，凡是都要身处在安定的环境里，才能真正地发挥自己，否则整个人都会不自在，情绪会不稳定。
这一两个月所看见的东西，其实真的很有启发性，影响深刻，这一趟并没有白走。还有，真的很感激他们对我的肯定，原来我并没有想象中的“烂”，嗯，我会好好地回报的。
好了，心可以安定下来了，眼前等着的是更多的挑战……

平衡点

2007-10-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

记得上中二的时候几何学(Geometry)很差，代数(algebra)比较好，为了不影响整体成绩，自己在家里自修了许多遍。结果在多次的几何测验里都考得不错，被黄雪莲老师选进了数理研究组代表学校出赛。几何、集合论和统计学都是中学时讨厌的数学科目，最喜欢的是代数和Calculus ，其实还蛮怀念那时候对数学的疯狂追求。
几何学里有讲到平衡点，找到一个多形物体的平衡点，只要一根手指就能将它轻易举起，四平八稳，不会倒下。
理论上听起来好象不难，但回到生活上，在许多human factor影响下，就不简单了。
我们也在每天的生活中寻觅平衡点，一个准确的平衡点，可能穷一生都找不到。
找不到平衡点，生活、工作、感情、健康、财富等会如失去支点的物体般摇摇欲坠，随时崩溃下来。
找到了平衡点，也要懂得维持，否则到头来还得从新开始，费时费力。
找到了平衡点会有什么不同？也许，人就可以因此定下来，然后打开梦想的蓝图，卷起袖子，开拓向往的乌托邦。
嗯，应该是这样吧。

Mark Twain once said.....

2007-10-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

To a man with a hammer, Mark Twain once said, everything looks like a nail.

Mathematics may not explain the market well, we need to add-in human factor, because the human behaviors have distorted its functions and logic unavoidably.

小宇

2007-10-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

[小宇] 应该是张震嶽写给一位他很喜欢的女生吧，可惜后来他们并没有走在一起。
一首很平静的歌，听起来却十分温馨。
爱，原来可以那么的简单。
可以什么东西都不需要，什么也不做，只要两个人在一起。
可以没有山盟海誓，可以没有 LV 和钻石，却不可以没有那颗真心。
两个人一起看看电影、逛逛街，也算是一种说不出的幸福。

不管未来会怎么样，至少我们现在很开心；
不管结局会怎么样，至少想念的人是你；
我不会把它当作游戏，因为我真心对你……

** 最近不知道是谁胡乱告诉我的母亲说我有了女朋友，害得她老人家以为有喜了，急得从 KL 打来追问。我还是不厌其烦地说没有啦，没有时间啊，在新加坡是很忙很忙的，她还是不相信。
说到底我是她的儿子，为什么她宁愿相信别人？

输了

2007-10-06T12:38:00.000+08:00

我们输了，他们终于赢了。我和我的 partner Aaron 都很不爽，一直唠叨不停，绞尽脑汁找出输球的原因。
当然，输赢都不重要，这已经是事实改变不了，只是怕不知道输在哪里，下一次能爬起来吗？
有没有想过生活中输赢的比例是多少？是不是输的次数比较多呢？
如果做每样事情前都有周详的部署，失败的机会应该比较少吧？如果完全没有准备，是不是一定死路一条呢？我不知道，也许只有经验丰富的长辈能够回答。
现在有了这样的想法，就是做每件事情前，都做好最坏的打算，把自己推到谷底，然后在过程中慢慢观察和学习，再扭转乾坤，把腐朽化神奇。
在这种情况下胜出，应该是最有满足感吧。不是吗？从开始一路领先到终点，这样赢了还有什么意义？

** 现在仍然觉得时间不够用，做不到许多自己想做的事情，难道是我自己太急了吗？

陈绮贞 A Piece Of Summer Concert

2007-09-30T02:40:00.000+08:00

今晚终于可以看到陈绮贞真人演绎的音乐会，非常高兴，是我目前所看过最精彩的 concert 。
由于坐在前面第二排，所以照片都拍得比较清楚。Concert 进行到一半时，绮贞突然跑下台与观众一起合唱，与偶像这么近距离的接触还是第一次。
陈绮贞真的很美、很有气质、很有音乐天份。其实对于比较成熟、长头发和有气质的女生都颇有好感，所谓的 dream girl 也许比较倾向于这一类型吧。
她很害羞，话说得很少，只专注把最好的音乐呈现给观众。喜欢 live 的音乐会，是因为那些重新编曲的歌曲，在各种乐器相结合下，都变得很有活力，让人耳目一新。
还有，这场 concert 一共有 5 次 encore ，散场时大家都很舍不得，希望明年可以再来一次。

Malaysia 的吸引力？

2007-09-29T12:09:00.000+08:00

From Chinapress.com.my:-

法官涉嫌被操纵？武吉阿曼高级警官被控洗百万黑钱？外來低层移民涉嫌姦杀本地妇女？女童遭残酷姦杀弃尸公众场所？巴生港口不寻常交易沒人理？猪农和官员在做沒有基点的存亡搏斗？

这些现象，都沒有在大马造成大地震。事实上，大马人一点都不震惊，我们已经习惯了。习惯了我们这个美丽的国家，沒有大地震；习惯了我們这个美丽的国家，在慢慢下陷。沒有人要改变，也沒有人觉得需要改变。

慢性下陷，不像大地震或大海嘯。大地震或大海嘯叫人震惊，令人感觉危机，為生存而採取防患行动。但慢性地陷是慢动作，人們已经习惯了，已经不再感到震惊，因此也沒有什么应对的行动。但和大地震或大海嘯一样，慢性地陷的后果是一样的，最终也是沉到大海底去。

我们的国家看来越來越吸引低层移民和外劳。這是什么原因，就不得而知。外资和专业人士，几乎都在避开大马；热衷于大马的，是许多第三世界国家的老千、罪犯和外劳。如果你每个週末早上到吉隆坡街上走走，会发现我們国家的首都市中心，已完全被下层的外劳和外来移民佔据了。是什么吸引力把他们吸來大马？大马的好，还是大马的坏？

有人说，物以类聚。以国家来说，怎样的国家吸引怎样的人，那就太糟糕了。我们美丽的马來西亚，什么時候变成吸引不受欢迎分子的磁铁了？我们的大马，是良性的磁铁，还是坏性的磁铁？

虽然没住在祖国马來西亚，但仍然每天在阅读它的新闻。对于发生种种惨不忍睹的事情感到心痛不已，为什么马來西亚还是没有长进？世界每天都在变，为什么马來西亚还是满足当个 Kampong Champion?

笨

2007-09-23T13:25:00.000+08:00

原来自己还是那么的好胜，不是常常说不要只在乎结果了吗？
说了许多次，也想了许多遍，到最后仍然是老样子，本性难移。
之前也和自己说过不该再想妳，但妳仍然在我心里回荡。
难道是自己太笨，自找烦恼吗？
Nothing to lose ，说得太美，自己却没那么潇洒。

**最近工作上发生了一些意想不到的事情，自己当然很沮丧。无论情势再怎么坏，也不要让旁人看到自己脆弱的一面。把自己置身于四面楚歌的急势不是坏事，反而是一个很好的经验。

那一段日子....

2007-09-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

此刻不想讲话，也不想理会接下来的日子该怎么过。
为什么会在这种时候发生这种事情？
是倒霉，还是上帝给的磨练？
难道当初做的决定是错误的？
还是别想了，听歌算了……

The great partnership

2007-09-15T12:20:00.000+08:00

最近常在想，很庆幸生活上常遇到很要好的 Partner 。
Partner 有很多种，
有一起在工作上同甘共苦的老板和同事，就算每晚加班拼了老命都无所谓；
有一起打 double 的羽球战友，遇到很强的对手时不畏惧，都知道该怎么打；
有一起煮酒论足球的波友，彼此熟悉到可以比电视里的 commentators 更有默契；
有一起 share 生活烦恼和乐趣的老朋友，只要一个 call 大家就相聚一起；
也有寂寞时一起聊天说笑的知己，虽然电话费是天文数字也 ok 。
那种在一起的感觉很奇妙，一种无法解释的缘分，时时刻刻都那么温馨。
要好的 Partner 很难很难找，失去了是人生的一大遗憾，希望大家好好珍惜。

未来

2007-09-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

是否记得张雨生的一首歌《我的未来不是梦》？虽然是很旧很老土了，听起来依然很有意思。

最近身边有些朋友都对未来感到彷徨和无助。其实每个人无论在什么位置和年龄，都有着一定程度的责任、抱负，还有别人给予的压力和期望。
我觉得首先要有自己的原则，无论遇到什么挫折都不会轻易动摇。
有了原则，就得相信自己，无论机会多么渺茫，自己怎么比不上别人都好。
最后，也是最重要的，是要说到做到，言出必行，否则所有的计划都会付诸东流，到头来只得个“讲”字。
我想，如果以前能够领悟这几点，不那么好玩，现在就不用那么辛苦了。
在我们这个年龄这个时代，要轻松和快乐地生活似乎有点不太现实。除非能够抛下一切包袱，还有在这个城市里的种种物资享受，什么都不管，不然就只有一个“拼”字，天下仍然是没有免费的午餐。
与其坐着叹息际遇不好，不如找些有实际帮助的东西来做做，让生命变得有意义。（最近迷上了阅读，有空闲的时间都会找书本来看。以前根本不会这么做，父亲再怎么打怎么劝都不听。）
学习独立去面对，雨过天晴之后，变得更强的自己，才算是值得去期待的。

你是不是像我在太阳下低头
流着汗水默默辛苦的工作
你是不是像我就算受了冷漠
也不放弃自己想要的生活

你是不是像我整天忙着追求
追求一种意想不到的温柔
你是不是像我曾经茫然失措
一次一次徘徊在十字街头

因为我不在乎别人怎么说
我从来没有忘记我对自己的承诺对爱的执著

我知道我的未来不是梦我认真的过每一分钟
我的未来不是梦我的心跟着希望在动
我的未来不是梦我认真的过每一分钟
我的未来不是梦我的心跟着希望在动
跟着希望在动

难忘

2007-09-08T13:14:00.000+08:00

过去那几天，都很想念 Citi 的旧同事，好不容易熬了过来。
新的同事都很好，男老板是一位非常有耐心的人，从来没遇过一位这么好脾气的人，很佩服。
那些刚毕业的 junior 也很乖，很谦虚和好学，所以基本上大家都相处得很好。
Office 是新建的，所以很新很美，从 26 楼的窗外可以看到新加坡的海景和金融区 Raffles Place 。
附近有许多大大小小的餐厅，选择很多，只是比较贵，lunch time 时很拥挤。
比较难适应的，只是它的 system 和 process ，都比 Citi 来得 manual 。
如果从好的方面想，在这里可以看到整个 process 的 full picture，可以学到基本的东西。
原来当一个人来到新的环境，是那么的孤立，一切都得从新开始。
这次是一个很好的经验，相信只要坚持，最后必定雨过天晴。
但愿如此.....

Goodbye, Citi.....

2007-09-02T17:25:00.000+08:00

就这样离开了 Citi，想起来 3 年并不长（2004年8月17日 - 2007年8月31日）。
留下的文件有很多，多得不想去整理和丢弃。
要走的那一天，却是八月里最忙碌的。虽然是最后一天了，工作多得透不过气来。
所以，我是无法体会即将离开的那种心情，心里有说不尽的话，却没有时间向大家说。
走得如此匆忙，原来是最痛的。到底怎样才算是最完美的告别？
明天会是人生的另一个里程碑，不管结果会是如何，我还是会勇敢地踏上这一步。
谢谢你们，晚安！

1）我的 teammates (Asset Servicing)

2) Trades EquityAccumulator team - Hariati, Siew Hong & Lynette

3) Trade Settlement team

4) Mutual Fund team

5) Rachel, Karen & Michelle ( Thanks for your lovely cards and Starbucks vouchers! Very touched, you made my day!)

6) Chin Wee，也即将 internal transfer 去 Citi London，好羡慕！

** 这 3 年里得到的，最重要不是经验，而是许多 nice colleagues 。希望以后大家会有机会再一起工作，再次谢谢你们！

不一样

2007-08-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

最近常到最爱的 Kinokuniya 书店和图书馆走走，发现想看的书实在太多了，穷一生都没办法看完。犹豫了几回，还是买了一些，借了一些，凡是有空闲有精神就看吧。
现在想起来，有点后悔之前花太多时间在无聊的事情上。
以前总是以为梦想只是天方夜谭，原来身边早已具备了许多很好的因素和平台，只是自己没发现。
有些东西只要稍微注意，或者把握一下，命运就会变得很不一样。
也许到了人生的一个里程碑，人会开始转变，所追求的事物也会不同。
凡是只要用心，一定“掂”，可惜的是自己领悟得太迟。
迟到总好过没到，路，还是要用心地走下去。

Forever Zard.....

2007-08-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

不知不觉三个月了，仍是不相信妳已经离开了这个世界。
其实是自己无法接受这个残酷的事实。
每天身边总是发生各种大大小小的事情，自己可以接受的其实不多。
有时在想，既然如此，活在这个世界的意义又是什么？
是为了别人的快乐而活着吗？还是为了自己的理想而呼吸？
如果是后者，我的理想会是什么，具体上自己也说不清楚。
于是，每天都在不清楚为什么活着的情况下继续生活。
不是悲哀，是什么？

** 为了不让自己那么悲观，常常自勉说，既然买了门票，就得把戏看玩，管它好看还是难看；演员也是一样，不管观众的反应如何，都得用心把戏演完，这样才称得上 professional 。

Big banks are not always best?

2007-08-25T16:35:00.000+08:00

Only 1 week left in Citi. I don't know how do I feel. Hmm, maybe a bit 舍不得 and anxious about the new working environment. Just come across this interesting article from efinancialcareers.sg and would like to share with you all here:-

Top banks are all very well, but the so-called 'second tier' also has plenty to offer, says Chris Mead, regional director at Hays Banking in Asia.

Given their size, diversity of products and business lines, global office network, extensive training programmes and budgets, top-tier investment banks have plenty in their favour. They usually offer more opportunities for career mobility and they also offer exposure to a more diverse range of banking products and business lines due to their size and global coverage.

But second-tier banking careers can be just as fruitful and rewarding as those in the traditional top global investment banks. Second-tier investment banks that focus on boutique markets will typically provide exposure to niche products and business lines that the top tier does not.

However, careers in second-tier banks are often a lot broader in scope. In a top-tier bank, your role is likely to focus on a specific operational function. At a smaller or second-tier house, job responsibilities are often more diverse as each member of the smaller team has a wider workflow. This allows for the development of a broader range of skills.

With smaller staff numbers, smaller houses also offer more potential to impress and progress your career quickly, although this is dependant on the individual – if you are driven and motivated, your career will develop strongly in either tier.

Don't, however, opt for a second-tier bank on the assumption that the workload will be less.

While the working hours were once much longer in top-tier banks, the differentiation between top-tier and second-tier hours is now minimal, with top-tier hours often only slightly longer due to the larger trading volumes. There are exceptions, but these are dependant on the particular role rather than the size of the bank; the working hours of a product controller supporting a trading desk in London or Tokyo for example will need to reflect the trading hours in the UK or Japan.

Finally, the all-important question: pay. While top-tier banks still offer larger salaries, in light of current skills shortages a recent trend has been for second-tier banks to offer a salary in excess of the market rate to secure a solid candidate. They may be diminutive in size, but small banks are starting to pay big.

A key point to consider is that any employer will offer unique cultures and career opportunities and you need to determine the culture which suits you best. Some people can adapt to the environment of a top-tier bank and some cannot. Similarly, some can adapt to the environment of a second-tier bank and some cannot. Ultimately, a bank's attractiveness depends on how well its opportunities and business aligns with the individual's own circumstances and goals.

星期六的早上

2007-08-25T07:44:00.000+08:00

昨晚回家后，因为心里很烦，什么没做就倒头大睡，一觉睡到早上 7 点多。
原来星期六的早上是那么美好的，感觉很舒服。

得与失

2007-08-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

最近常在想得与失的问题。
我想，当一个人真正变得成熟的时候，做每件事情他都会去思考。
不是思考得与失是什么，而是思考如何在过程中发掘快乐和人生哲理，然后学以致用，为人生写下完美的句号。
得与失，赢与输，已经不那么重要。
即使赢了无数次，也会因为一次的错误，而一败涂地。
即使从来没赢过，也会因为一路的坚持，而开花结果。
所以，凡是遇到问题，都要学习思考，不是情绪化地无的放矢。
问题已不再是问题，问题变成个人表演的人生平台，是你看你自己如何在这数十年里把腐朽化为传奇。

** 今天妳问我近来还好吗，说过去妳错了，希望我原谅。我无言以对，错的都是我自己，从来也没怨过谁，为什么妳还要坚持？我的确错失了曾经一段最宝贵的感情，但却从中领悟了更多。谢谢妳的祝福，我会尝试过得比从前快乐。

Life is like a box of chocolates.....

2007-08-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

Finally back to Singapore.
First time experienced the fast-paced living in the HongKong city. It's great and challenging, very crowded though. Its night scene is beautiful. Looking at the tall office buildings from IFC Mall yesterday night, I was wondering if I would work and live in HongKong one day. Would I?

Watched a few movies during the flight. One of them are the very touching "Forrest Gump". Actually I tried not to watch this movie again because it almost make me cry every time. But what Forrest said below had caught my attention and thus I continued to watch till the end:

"I don't know if we each have a destiny,
or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze,
but I, I think maybe it's both.
Maybe both is happening at the same time.
If there's anything you need, I won't be far away."

Thanks for encouraging me to play the Mine Train at Ocean Park. The moment I stepped into the Mine Train was like the end of the world. It was my first time, but it will not be the last time, because I will play it again and again.
You are the very special one, I mean it. I wish I could have found you earlier. It's not late yet, maybe.

留在 Citi 的日子: 还有14 天

2007-08-18T02:06:00.001+08:00

Adrian, Mark 哥 & Me

Adrian & Me

Ray & Me

My desk before I knocked off...very messy. I was searching for HK map as I'll be there tomorrow, yeah!

** I brought my camera to work today because I'll not be seeing her until my last day at Citi. Anyway, she refused to take photo as she didn't wear nice today. Will take photos with her again during the farewell dinner next next week.

A Piece Of Summer

2007-08-11T22:04:00.001+08:00

photos from awei

陈绮贞 Cherry Chen [A Piece of Summer] Concert

Date: 29 Sep 2007, 8pm
Venue: Singapore Expo - The Max Pavilion
Ticket Price: $138, $118, $98, $78, $58

终于来到新加坡了！期待了好多年终于有着落……
一场我个人觉得绝对不容许错过的经典 Live 音乐会，下个月即将在新加坡举行。我认为这是音乐会，而不是演唱会，是因为它不像一般歌星只在台上唱唱跳跳，做做 show、赚赚钱而已。如果你想看看陈绮贞如何利用她的吉他和甜美的声线，通过 Live 的方式分享她的音乐心得和旅程，这真的是人生里值得一 try 的。
怎么样，有兴趣吗？

唯一

2007-08-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

是否还记得一首蛮旧的歌《你是我的唯一》？是巫启贤唱的。
有一晚坐 Taxi 回家时听见 radio 播这首歌，以前中学时听过没什么留意，现在听了却很有意思。
原来，时间真的可以改变人对事物的看法。
希望若干年后，不堪回首的往事能够变成美好回忆……

词: 邢增华
曲: 巫启贤

很想给你写封信
告诉你这里的天气
昨夜的那一场电影
还有我的心情

很想给你写封信
却只是想想而已
我已经不能肯定
你是不是还会关心

爱与不爱都需要勇气
於是我们都选择了逃避
爱与不爱都需要勇气
於是我们都选择了逃避

或许你不相信我很满意这样的结局
或许你不相信我没有一丝的埋怨和悔意
虽然你是我的最初
虽然你是我的最终
虽然你是我的唯一

香港之旅

2007-08-04T11:36:00.000+08:00

昨天拿了一天的假期，一个人到 Raffles Place 去做 medical checkup，还好 everything is ok。
过后就到附近的 G2000 看看，由于是工作时间，大大的店里只有两三位顾客，不必排队。我选了许多件衣裤，试了又试，最后只买了一条长裤。
接下来，由于时间还早，就到 Orchard 进行第二轮的“血拼”，为两个星期后的香港之旅做准备。只走了几圈，就觉得需要买许多东西，真恐怖。
终于决定了在新公司上班之前，到香港去玩玩 (18-21 Aug)，好让自己休息休息。很期待和香港的朋友见面，这次的旅行必须好好地 plan 一下，不可以乱乱来，因为真的好贵，辛辛苦苦的 savings 又包汤了。

** 也许长期在 Tampines 工作，昨天在 Raffles Place 走走时，觉得很不自在。Tampines 是属于郊外地区，环境比较悠闲，没那么紧凑，附近还有许多住宅区围绕，常常可以看到家庭主妇、学生和年迈长辈。不过，Raffles Place 始终是新加坡的金融区，也是我的 dream working place ，四处都是来去匆匆的上班族，相信消失已久的工作斗志很快就会回来。

New Song.....私奔到月球 by 五月天 & 陈绮贞

2007-07-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

词曲: 阿信

其实你是个心狠又手辣的小偷
我的心我的呼吸和名字都偷走
你才是绑架我的凶手
机车後座的我吹着风逃离了平庸

这星球天天有五十亿人在错过
多幸运有你一起看星星在争宠
这一刻不再问为什麽
不再去猜测人和人心和心有什麽不同

1 2 3 牵着手
4 5 6 抬起头
7 8 9 我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动

当你说太聪明往往还是会寂寞
我笑着倾听孤单终结後的静寞
看月亮像夜空的瞳孔
静静凝视你我和我们闹嚷的星球

靠近你怎麽突然两个人都词穷
让心跳像是野火燎原般的汹涌
这一刻让命运也沉默
让脚尖划过天和天地和地缘分的宇宙

1 2 3 牵着手
4 5 6 抬起头
7 8 9 我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动

** 一向来都喜欢阿信的词，简单、容易上口，又有意思。MV的画面让人憧憬爱情，习惯了单身的我有点措手不及……

难做人

2007-07-29T14:21:00.000+08:00

原来跟老板说要辞职是一件很烦的事情。
他们很想我留下，这个星期被叫去“喝咖啡”几次了，但另外一边的 offer 却很好，无法拒绝，不然会对不起自己和父母。
挣扎了一个星期，心里面已经有了最后决定，相信所做的决定是对的，希望他们会了解，不会怪我。当然，现在离开对我的 team 来说是时机很不对，Eileen 都快要去 maternity 了，Ray 和 Adrian 也要去 reservices 。所以老板要我留下，很大的原因也是这个吧。
不想破坏和老板的关系，又不想失去一个这么好的 offer ，真难做人。也许，有时做人要心狠一点。如何巧妙地拒绝别人，的确是一门学问。

It's time to call it off.....

2007-07-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

Just finished writing my so called 1st formal resignation letter. Although it's just a very short letter, I had spent more than half an hour to complete it. A lot of memories with Citi flashed back in my mind. The 3 years relationship is not short. I believe I'll have a super hard feeling handing the letter to my manager tomorrow.
I still remember the scene when my manager Annie interviewed me in a RSC meeting room(now has been removed due to expansion) on 16 Aug 2004. She was pregnant and I was still considered as a fresh graduate without any banking knowledge, doing some part time jobs while seriously looking for my 1st permanent job in banking. The interview session was quite short as I only gave very simple answer for each question she asked. I was also asked to do a coupon calculation, which now I think how super easy it is. I stunt for a while but managed to answer it correctly later. At the end, I thought I had failed it badly and could never join Citi again.
Anyway, I was just lucky enough to be offered a 3-month contract position in the Corporate Action team. Without hesitating, I agreed and started my 3 year-life in Citi on 17 Aug 2004.....

缘

2007-07-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

缘分就是那么奇妙，风牛马不相及的人可以碰在一起，成为侃侃而谈的朋友。
有时候会是因为共同的兴趣和话题，有时候则是因为一件很不起眼的小事。
就是那么偶然，那么意外，令人防不胜防。
从此，生活多了一份期待，少了一份孤寂。

人说缘字终难猜透，来去匆匆，犹如车窗外飞逝的景物。
虽然不能尽如人意，我还是会记得这段真挚情谊。

最近认识了一些新朋友，曾经是陌生的人，现在却如此的靠近。

点亮霓虹灯...by 蔡琴

2007-07-14T16:04:00.000+08:00

作词: 林秋离
作曲: 黄国伦

总是面对过那些令人很难堪的事
才明白人间的聚散是不能全放在心上
你说的爱不难不代表可以简单说忘就忘

总是面对过任何时间都伪装的人
那谎言如此的明显却满足了情的弱点
教人心甘情愿将自己陷在里面不顾危险

点亮霓虹灯粉刷着黑夜不会那麽深
纵然心已冷也把爱当作真
点亮霓虹灯疲倦的眼神不会那样沉
我的梦依然在红尘中翻滚
在红尘中翻滚.....

** 很难想象26岁的我会喜欢听50岁的女人唱歌。记得小学的时候，父亲也喜欢听蔡琴，时常在车上播她的歌。由于还小，我只是默默地听，什么也听不懂。直到中学，无意中听到这首歌《点亮霓虹灯》，心里顿然有种很 shocked 的感觉。于是开始留意蔡琴，却又不敢告诉朋友我喜欢她的歌，因为我还是中学生，听老歌是件很丢脸的事。

只有到了大学，才决定抛开这错误的观念，开始寻找蔡琴的歌，第一首就是《点亮霓虹灯》。后来，陆陆续续地收集了不少蔡琴的歌，不过要真正引起共鸣的，却是在踏入社会工作后，这才明白为什么父亲那时候会喜欢听她的歌。现在，临睡前都会习惯地播放她的歌，然后回想当天发生过的事情，想着想着就这样睡着了。

据说，这首歌在她的心中占据了很重要的位置。1995年，她那一段10年婚姻，因为第三者的介入而宣告破裂。那时候她刚好在录制这首歌，伤心的人，唱伤感的歌，一首永恒的经典，就这样诞生了。蔡琴曾表示，在演唱会时，她没有勇气当众把这首歌唱完，因为它总是勾起那段伤痛的回忆。每次唱到一半，泪水已模糊了眼睛，无法再唱下去。

我听见我的心在哭...by 蔡琴

2007-07-12T22:04:00.000+08:00

词: 方丽莎
曲: 游正彦

锁上灯关上门黑暗里只剩我和我独处
白天那个与我同名同姓的人所做的事我都不在乎
做不该做的事爱不该爱的人天天重覆
记得巳有很久不曾为谁痛哭所有的苦都当做过渡
我听见我的心在哭如此遥远却如此清楚
我听见我的心在哭像孩子一样的无助
人的世界忙忙碌碌盲盲目目在人群中随着沉沉浮浮
每个人都荒荒张张仓仓促促谁又能去说自己在乎

那些事那些人...by 蔡琴

2007-07-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

作曲: 黄庆元
作词: 陈韦廷

推开记忆的门
我在心里看见了看见了
远去的人是他和她
曾陪我走过生命里的淡淡早晨
推开记忆的门
身后往事一幕幕一幕幕
似幻似真有悲有喜
有爱有恨酸酸甜甜消磨了青春
感谢那些事感谢那些人
感谢那一段段奇妙的缘分
啊! 人生原来就是和那些事那些人相遇的过程

生日快乐

2007-07-08T01:23:00.001+08:00

26 岁了，新的一个人生阶段即将开始。今天慧智邀请大家到她的家品尝她的厨艺，顺便庆祝 Kaijin、她自己和我的生日。慧智果然不负众望，她的咖哩鸡、排骨和午餐肉都是有相当水准的，每个人都赞不绝口，Cheelim 有福啦！晚餐后是眼镜熊和Heart Attack 时间，由于输了两场，被罚喝了两大杯的 Vodka + 梅酒 + Soda + iced lemon tea ，整个人 high high 的，还好没醉倒。

开始吹蛋糕啦……

美好时光

一只双子和两只巨蟹在许愿。事业、爱情、健康、家庭、友情、财运都很重要，只是还没有心理准备进入26，不知该怎么 prioritize 。

切蛋糕……

给 Kaijin 的生日礼物，Steven Gerrard's Autobiography。买的时候，全新加坡的 Kinokuniya 只剩下一本。Gerrard 的新加坡fans 真是超多！

给慧智的生日礼物，智慧沙。很遗憾没能买张小娴的书给你，不过这本书也蛮有意思的，希望你会把它看完。

今年的生日过得很特别！在许多照片里都是笑得嘻嘻哈哈的。谢谢你们！

BBQ at penthouse

2007-07-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

Our unit had a BBQ dinner after work at colleague Meena's new penthouse on Friday. The design of her penthouse is amazing and considerably spacious too. I just wonder how long I should wait to buy my own penthouse. Overall the session was good, lots of jokes and unfinished food. Thanks Colin for organizing the BBQ dinner, I know it's not an easy job.

Colin was setting up the fire for BBQ. Have learned a lot from him on the preparation of food and tools.

Chee Heng, a member of the Chee Brothers Inc, was bbq-ing the delicious golden crispy chicken wings and satay. Me, the another member, was serving others with my famous black pepper chicken wings.

Was not in the mood of taking pictures in that night. BBQ may not be suitable as we were exhausted after work. It's not easy to stand in front of the hot fire and do the BBQ. A small buffet would be better and is easier to clean up after finish.

A Cancer

2007-07-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

I don't really believe in horoscopes. There are billions of people in this world and it's not possible to categorize them into 12 horoscopes. Anyway, just received an email from a friend of mine yesterday and the descriptions about Cancer shock me:-

1) He never go to get what he wants directly, but he will wait for a chance and opportunity to do so. Once he gets what he wants, he will not loose it, except if he get tired of it by himself.
100% correct: I'm an opportunist. I've learned its importance from soccer matches and badminton.

2) The most sensitive man who can not stand rejection. He cares what other people feel or think of him. He hates loosing face and he tends to over protected himself, so sometimes people might think he is a cold person.
100% correct: Ya, I'm quite sensitive. My colleagues and good friends know me well on this.

3) His security is only when he has money in his pocket. Once he feels secure then he might think of having a happy family. Even he likes to make and keep money, he is not stingy. Spending money is part of his good image, so he will be happy to spent money to take you out to a very expensive restaurant or buy a jewelry for you. Certainly when he has money OK.
100% correct: When I have money, I like to spend on nice and expensive food with friends.

4) He is possessive to everything that he thinks belong to him. Don't try to talk to another cute guy in front of him, he will get suspicion because he is not very secure or confident in himself for this kind of competition.
80% correct: Although have been single for 2 years, I still remember that I'm an easy-jealous guy.

5) He is a shy guy, but if he likes you. You can get up in the morning and see that he is in front of your house everyday till you go out with him, a very persistent guy.
60% correct: Yes, I'm shy but not persistent enough.

6) He likes a secure, cheerful and lively woman, confident but at the same time always act proper and appropriate. He likes a secure woman, but able to adjust to his rapid changes. A very difficult type to find woman indeed.
100% correct: How true it is! Yes, it's not easy to find.....

7) He thinks of his home as "nest" and it is the safest place for him. If he feels hurt or depress he will stay at home alone quietly. Once he feels better, he will come out of his retreat and lives normally again. Being a looser is not him.
80% correct: I like family but I won't stay at home when I'm depressed. I would rather go out alone for breathing fresh breeze.

8) Gifted, creative, imaginative, is Cancer. A mystery and complexity play a major role in a life of a Cancer man. He could be very funny, very quiet, suddenly very sad. Living with him could be very unexpected, for you will not know what is his next mood. If you like excitement and surprise, you have the right guy and never have a chance to get bored.
100% correct: Sometimes I think I'm a complicated person, but my colleagues tend to say I'm flexible too. Simply unpredictable.

9) It is so easy to fall in love with this guy because he is gentle and a very polite guy. His wit and creative mind could win your affection. He will come out from his nest to protect you even if he is not opening himself up to other people much. Not many people will win his heart.
60% correct: I don't think I'm charm and gentle enough. So girls are easy to fall in love with me is totally not true. The rest is quite true though.

10) The most sensitive man and the weakest emotional type in all Zodiac. Most artists are Cancer. Cancer is controlled by the "Moon" and the moon change it's shape daily, so Cancer man's emotional and moods change all the time too. You will confuse with him and yet it is his constantly changes that "Charm" you.
80% correct: I'm not that emotional but I do always confuse people, especially my boss. She always says my words cannot be trusted and must double or triple confirm before can get to conclusion.

Captain?

2007-07-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

Recently I was "elected" as the badminton captain of Private Bank in the coming Citi Sports Challenge, which will be held at NUS High School on 18 Aug 2007. Every business group, ie Private Bank, IPB, Corporate & Investment Bank, Consumer Bank and O&T will compete each other in the events like soccer, badminton, captain ball, netball, table tennis, track & field, cheerleading and Tug of War (should be 拔河 I think?).

Well, frankly speaking, the word "elected" is not appropriate I think, since I'm not a natural leader, nor a good badminton player. Someone who is elected should have something outstanding which can drive the rest forward. The only reason is because badminton is not a popular sports in Private Bank. Me, a regular player, have no choice but to take up the very tough task to lead the team to fight for our Private Bank's pride, haha. Hopefully we won't be the last team again, we are aiming at least the second last spot this year, ambitious but still stick to the reality.

As a captain, must at least do some preparation before the D day. The participant rate is quite good compared to last year. Is it largely due to the SGD50 per head (T-shirt + training expenses) sponsored by the management? Hopefully it's not, we shall see the participants' enthusiasm and sportsmanship soon - fight until the last blood. Training session is supposed to start from this week, but the courts are still not booked yet, and worse thing is I have not communicated to all the team members so far. Feel so guilty being a irresponsible captain. Nevertheless, I have already started my personal training last Sunday, trying to regain my deteriorating form, which had frustrated me for the past few weeks. The result is good though quite tiring, self belief and a little bit more determination will do.

** Went to Orchard Kinokuniya after work last Thursday and saw some China construction workers very focus on reading Chinese history and geography books on the floor. They looked like just knocked off from work because their clothes were so muddy and stinky. The first question raised up in my mind is "How come they are so keen on reading?". Not that I despise construction workers (I despise nobody), I just feel very guilty myself, why I do not have such a strong desire to improve my knowledge level?

家驹逝世14周年

2007-07-01T00:23:00.001+08:00

1993年6月24日，黄家驹参加日本一个电视节目，应邀与主持人一起玩游戏时，由于舞台上有积水，两人不慎从3米高的舞台上摔下来。家驹头部先着地，伤势严重，一直处于昏迷状态。当年的6月30日下午4时15分，家驹与死神搏斗144小时后永远地长眠不醒，享年31岁……

昨天，6月30日，是 Beyond 成员黄家驹逝世的第14周年。每一年的同一天，相信不少歌迷都会同样地感慨。他，依然停留在那一段未被遗忘的时光，拿着心爱的吉他，把心中的音乐和理想传达给我们。
Beyond 红的时候我还很小，还在念小学，年少无知。故，我很遗憾无法在家驹逝世前欣赏他的 rock 'n' roll、了解他的信念。那时候很流行华语歌，口里哼的都是周华健、小虎队之类的歌。直到慢慢长大后，开始看清楚这世界，接触了种种人情世故，原来他的歌可以带给自己这么大的回响。可惜，这一切都已经太迟……

岁月无声

词: 刘卓辉曲: 黄家驹

千杯酒已喝下去都不醉何况秋风秋雨
几多不对说在你口里但也不感触一句
泪眼已吹干无力再回望
山不再崎岖但背影伴你疲累相对
沙不怕风吹在某天定会凝聚
若我可再留下来
迫不得已唱下去的歌里还有多少心碎
可否不要往后再倒退让我不唏嘘一句
白发已沧桑无梦再期望

岁月无声无息地吞噬过去，遥望无际的大地，无语问苍天。
愿我能忘记无泪的遗憾，还有那灰色轨迹，带着海阔天空的情怀，不再犹豫。
只要曾是拥有，无悔这一生……

Be reminisced...

2007-06-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

Thierry Henry completed a £16million switch to Barcelona on Monday, 25 Jun 2007, ended his 8 years career at Arsenal, scored 226 goals in 364 games. His contribution to Arsenal, English football and the audience will be long remembered.

I always thought he, the captain and legend of Arsenal, would remain to play for Arsenal until he retires. Well, this is life, when you always think something is right or not gonna be wrong, it would pop and prove otherwise. That's why in operations we are always taught not to assume, not to act smart, not to apply our own knowledge and must counter check with different source.
Nothing will stay the same forever, so it's rational for me to leave after 3 years of services in opeations. Ha. Recently just told my boss I wanna 'internal transfer' to investment/product desk by this year and rejected her intention to keep me in operations until next year. My words were so firm and no point of return. Dunno where my courage came from, coz nobody dare to challenge or disagree with her. Basically I just told her I see no progress staying in operations and should waste no time to do something more challenging.
I am so relieved after telling her what I really want in my heart. I know myself best and operations is definitely not suitable for me. I had pondered very long before decided what I wanted to tell her, scared that she would screw me badly. Maybe some people would think I'm stupid coz we should not be so honest to our boss. Whatever not happy or disappointed should not let our boss know. Initially I also thought the same, but the longer I stay in operations, the more jaded I feel. I told myself I cannot continue like this anymore, why should I force myself doing something I dislike? Sometimes things cannot keep too long in the heart, must speak up without fear and hesitation!

Gathering

2007-06-24T23:21:00.001+08:00

Tonight we had a very rare but precious old classmates gathering as Ah Kemp will be heading to KL tomorrow. Kemp used to be one of the most popular mascots in our class, so unsurprisingly most of us showed up in the gathering. Kaijin and Feikok also brought their respective 另一伴 along and introduced to us 'officially', and 'finally', ha.
Firstly we had dinner together at a deserted restaurant named "HK 鱼头炉" (recommended by Feikok) in Chinatown. After that there's a coffee session at the Clark Quay tcc. Well, we brought up many jokes and stories which happened 10 years back throughout the gathering. We also had lots of teasings and interrogations on Kemp regarding his mysterious 另一伴. It's great to see that everyone of us still can remember all the small things. This very special feeling cannot be found from the new friends we made after secondary school, I guess.
I think my face looked very fat in the picture and someone was just laughing at my tummy during the badminton game this morning . It's time to keep fit! Beh tahan le.

Long lost friend

2007-06-24T00:13:00.000+08:00

Went to Orchard today to meet Ah Kemp, who came all the way from Australia for a 3-day trip. Well, a long lost good friend, we had never met each other for 8 years. The very last time I saw him was at the Kuala Lumpur International Airport, when he was leaving to Australia for study.
He used to be one of my best friends in high school and I feel very guilty for losing contact with him during these 8 years. Very sorry bro.
Before meeting Ah Kemp, I walked around CK Tang, Paragon and the Heeren, tried to grab some nice and cheap stuff before the Great Singapore Sales end. Found a very very good bargain at a FCUK shop(one of my fav brand), a long-sleeve shirt that was originally priced at SGD99 but was now discounted 70% and plus further 10% if paid by Citibank credit card. So in the end it's only SGD24 something(minus some points from my credit card). What a great Singapore sales!
I suddenly feel the excitement of sourcing nice and cheap stuff (although it's pure my luck, not my bargain skill) and it relates me to Merger & Aquisition. It's always an area which I'm very interested to explore.....

Six Thinking Hats

2007-06-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

Had been sponsored by my company to attend the de Bono's Lateral Thinking/ Six Thinking Hats course at Singapore Institute of Management(SIM) for the past two days. The course was conducted by Sir Peter Low, a very brilliant trainer who also shared a lot of funny jokes with us, made the course so lively and effervescent. It is the best training I have ever gone so far because it gives me a "PO!" and then "AH!", I have been a brainless creature for 26 years!
We are taught to eat, we are taught to walk, we are taught to speak, but we are never taught to think. I just realized that I seldom put on my cap to think properly how I want my life and my work to be. I always go by feeling rather than sitting down to think, because I used to tell myself that I had no time to think and now I know that I didn't have the right skills to think as well. I hope the two-day course could be longer, because I only manage to capture its concept, but not the entire skills to deal with different circumstances.
However, after this course, I'll be more determined to do what I want in my life and my work. No waste time. Skills, experience plus a little bit of luck are the elements for success. Yes, everybody know it I think, but who can consciously follow the paths he is supposed to follow?

You don't necessarily stand at the top to be the top. The great satisfaction always comes when you beat the top unexpectedly.

The rivalry

2007-06-11T22:48:00.001+08:00

"Obviously, if I would have won today, I would have had not many other goals to chase in my career. Like this, it stays open. And, eventually, if I get it, the sweeter it's going to taste."

~~ Roger Federer, who lost to his biggest rival Rafael Nadal 3-6, 6-4, 2-6, 4-6 in the French Tennis Open final. He also lost to Nadal in the 2005 semi-final and the 2006 final of French Open. The silver Coupe des Mousquetaires becomes the only Grand Slam trophy missing from the world No. 1-ranked player's collection.

It's nature's way of reminding even the biggest, baddest, swiftest and most skilled among us that somewhere out there is the one somebody who has your number.

溏心风暴

2007-06-09T13:37:00.001+08:00

漫长 40 集的《溏心风暴》终于在前天看完，大概追了一个月。虽然不是百分百满意，不过它算是近几年最红的港剧之一。剧情围绕着一个卖鲍鱼的大家族，如何为六亿财产争得死去活来，还有纵横感人的爱情故事，值得推荐。

溏心家族

私生子“得得地”（陈豪）拿着家传之宝“双头鲍”向小妈 “细契”在庭外求和。

大结局前，小妈 “细契”向法庭推翻遗嘱接近失败.....

“没有常在心的日子，第957日，阴天。如果常在心真的可以放下哀伤，很坚强的活下去，到时候无论我在哪里，相信我都会开心得流泪，而这些眼泪流下来，就会变成彩色的雨，哄常在心笑。”

常在心（钟嘉欣），23岁。因为看《溏心风暴》才认识她，原来她曾经是国际华裔小姐冠军。

Pirates & Mayday

2007-06-03T17:27:00.001+08:00

Pirates of the Carribean - At World's End 上映了一个星期，本来是和同事约好了一起看，但大家都没时间，结果忍不住一个人跑去 Cathay Orchard 看了。Sorry la 。
我觉得这第三集还是拍得不错，不明白为什么报纸只给一个 Star 。如果它只值得一个 Star ，那么 Spiderman 3 就得倒扣五个 Star 。三个小时的戏很快就过去，好象没得到什么，只是很向往里头海盜的生活，逍遥自在，没有束缚。
看完戏后，就开始了今天的重头戏——《五月天 · 离开地球表面》演唱会。

启程前，在 Bugis 的南翔和永革与 Peiqi 吃晚餐。叫了上海抄面、抄饭、拉面、虾肉小笼包和南瓜饼，结果太多吃不完，埋单走人。这里的东西没以前那么好吃，很失望。

Concert 开始前，俊男美女都来个合照，warm-up warm-up 一下。

Concert 一开始，就有许多爆破场面，烟雾弥漫，一连串的劲歌快曲差点把大家的耳朵给炸破。

阿信，站在高高的舞台上，那一晚，许多女生都失控。除了强劲的音乐，就是她们的尖叫声，还好没有呻吟声。

因为坐得太远，拍的镜头都很小。不过，这次的 concert 没两年前的好看，可能唱的歌很多都是重复，失去了新鲜感。也可能是 Izumi Sakai 逝世的悲痛还存在心里，曾期待到日本去看她的 concert ，现在却变成不可能的事。

五月天在这次的 concert 宣传了许多讯息，如 Revolution、Imagine、Dream、Love等，选唱的歌大多和这些主题有关，还放了 John Lennon 和 Cuba 政治家 Che Guevara 的照片。他们想告诉大家的，应该是 “敢敢爱，敢敢来” 吧。

曲终人散后，由于来不及赶上最后一趟去Boon Lay 的 mrt，只好到 Changi Airport 吃宵夜。由于接近凌晨 12 点，有些店都关了，结果只好在 Pacific Coffee 喝咖啡吃 cheese cake. 吃完后，一起搭 cab 回家，就这样度过了一个有意义星期六。

宁静的 Changi Airport Terminal 1 。每次到机场，其实都有一股豁出去的冲动，好想立刻买机票飞离新加坡，去哪里都无所谓.....

Sharing some photos

2007-06-03T16:49:00.000+08:00

Found some photos before I brought my camera to the Mayday concert yesterday. These photos were taken during the CNY dinner at Sameer's condo in February. It was a memorable night!

Asset Servicing Team
~ I looked slightly fatter in the picture. Maybe ate too much during the Chinese New Year.

Asia Securities Operations (Asset Servicing + Mufual Fund + Trades Settlement)
~ Those in blue T-shirts were the winners of the Amazing Race (including myself) :)

Preparing the 捞生.....

Ray, Adrian and Eileen were having the dinner happily.

We had team heads' beer challenge after the dinner. Kok Chuen (in white T-shirt) went to the toilet right after he finished the whole can of beer.

We also celebrated Ray's birthday on that night: his birthday present (in the Adidas bag) + 1 can of Tiger beer.

Miss you.....

2007-05-31T23:38:00.001+08:00

I still cannot get over from your death yet. Saw an article written by a Zard fans, Wai-Man from Holland and I almost broke into tears:

"These past two days had been a torture. All I did was eating and sleeping, eating and sleeping. Just the bare minimum to survive. And it's only when I'm sleeping I can forget about everything. The report I've been working on needs to be finished by next month. But I still haven't put down a single word, ever since I knew about the tragic news. I don't remember anymore what I did exactly the first day. The second day has been even worse, because it was then that I realized you were really gone, and that this all wasn't just a bad nightmare. Worst of all is that I can't find comfort anymore while listening to your songs. It used to be my favorite passing time. But it makes me so sad that I'm afraid to touch my own music player...

I feel guilty that I've been living so carefree the past year, while you were fighting for your life. Why you didn't want to let us know? You've always encouraged us with your music, whenever we feel down. But now that you needed the support the most, we couldn't do anything to help you at all. Please tell me you haven't suffered until the very last moment. It will break my heart otherwise. Why did you work so hard to make a comeback in your condition? There was really no need. You are always no.1 in my heart. You should have waited until you were fully recovered. I don't mind to wait, no matter how many years it might be...

I miss the joy we had whenever there was an annoucement of a new release. The joy when the cover was revealed with your photo. The first sample of the song with your voice that we will always hear from Wezard.net. The hunt to find the new PV for your song, even though it might be only a slideshow. I didn't care at all! I will miss this everything. To know there won't be any new releases anymore is just too much...

I will try to be strong for you. And maybe someday I will be able to tell everyone how proud I am of you. Yes, it's truely an honor to be a Zard fan. Hope you are well."

I know I cannot look forward to your new singles or albums again. Your wonderful stories have ended in the year of 2007. I will remember it and will continue to play your previous songs whenever I miss you, till the last breath of my life.....

May you rest in peace, Izumi Sakai (Zard)

2007-05-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

“坂井泉水於去年6月, 因罹患子宫颈癌, 於东京都内某医院持续入院出院, 与病魔对抗。因做了摘除手术, 病情曾一度好转, 但因确认出子宫颈癌己转移至肺部, 今年4 月不得不再度入院。由於主治医师及医院同仁治疗的关係, 最近早晨可以到医院空地内散步, 每天都很坚强, 期待早日康复。5月26日早上, 於返回病房途中, 在经过楼梯间时（约3公尺高）, 因前一天下雨滑倒摔落, 后脑受到重击, 是其主要死因。”

妳走了，我无法相信这是事实。
我很惭愧，竟然在妳逝世 3 天后才知道。
今天早上上班前，在买咖啡时，突然收到开劲的 sms ，告诉我妳逝世的消息，我简直吓了一跳。
于是匆匆地付了钱，拿着咖啡赶快走去 office 上网查证。
进入常去的 Zardnet.com , 当看到以下 homepage 时，我的心整个塌了下来，呼吸停止片刻。
为什么是妳？为什么这么早就离开我们? 心里不停地问，可是却没有人可以回答。
只活了 40 岁的妳，就像划过夜空的流星，虽然短暂，但却灿烂地照耀了大地。我会永远惦记妳的。

直到现在，我还是宁愿相信这只是一场梦而已。想起来也蛮巧，妳逝世的当晚，我还因为一阵子没听妳的歌，而在临睡前点播选了数十首歌。那时候在想，很久没听了，还是那么动听，什么时候可以再听到妳的新歌。但现在，它是不可能的事了.....
我不知所措，当看到妳葬礼的照片时，心里有一股冲动，想马上跑去现场为妳哀悼。
不过，以后如果有机会去 Tokyo ，我一定会去看看妳的。

我是来了新加坡后才认识妳的。来到这里不到半年，有一天很偶然地在 Clementi 的一间 CD 小店找到妳的一张精选辑 [ZARD Best.Request.Memorial] 。那时候不知道里面的歌好不好听，只是因为它的封面很好看，想更多地认识妳，就买下了。然后就从这张专辑，一首接一首的疯狂迷上了，至今我几乎拥有了妳所有的歌，iPod 里也放了两百首歌，从未被 deleted 过。

每次回 KL 时都会听妳的歌，相信以后都会。这 7 年里，开心和悲伤的时候都有妳的歌陪伴。是妳的歌不断激励我，让我改变对人生的看法，变得不再消极，勇往直前。没有了妳，我知道我会比从前更加珍惜妳。

每次听妳的歌，很自然会想起过去 7 年发生的点点滴滴，包括我和她之间的事情。过去就让它过去吧.....

一来到新加坡就认识妳，妳的离开是否意味着我会离开新加坡呢？近来，我的确想离开这里.....

香港

2007-05-27T13:58:00.000+08:00

昨晚和一个来自香港的旧同事 chat 到凌晨 5 点，结果早上打羽球时力不从心，无法集中精神。
很想去香港，想去那里旅行、工作或者长期定居。喜欢香港，可能是因为从小就一直看无线港剧、听广东歌，爱上了它的文化。所以和那位旧同事聊天也蛮投缘的，感觉比较舒服。
虽然香港的工作压力会比这里大，消费也比较贵，但很想趁年轻的时候去更多国家闯闯。
而且，在新加坡七年了，开始感到厌倦，觉得这里很沉闷，食物难吃，选择也很少，消遣的地方来来去去都是那几个。新加坡政府想打造一个 world class 的城市，想把它完美化，不过这样却使它失去了原有的东方色彩。
如果不能去香港工作，我想东京和上海是不错的选择。
想要体验生活，而不是过生活。一成不变的生活很难受，摆脱种种束缚，放肆一下自己，有可能吗？

Yui

2007-05-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

之前因为电影《A Song To The Sun》认识了 Yui，因为看起来很有气质、漂亮，开始留意她，并接触她唱过的歌。
开始的时候并不怎么喜欢她的歌，因为很 "Avril Lavigne"和"Alanis Morissette" 的感觉。
不过听了好几次，慢慢被她征服。
有时候分不清楚到底是欣赏她的才华，还是喜欢上她的外表。
毕竟，两全其美的东西多少都带点欺骗的成份。
我们，却喜欢追求这样的东西。
心里总是期待有一天能够拥有，
即使知道它存有那一点点的虚假.....

1st album: 2006 年 [From Me To You]

2nd album: 2007 年 [Can't Buy My Love]

I always think that I can't live up to the expectations of somebody. Though I feel jaded sometimes, I never give up making myself to the destination, coz' I care what others think about me.

五月天

2007-05-21T01:54:00.001+08:00

星期天的晚上再次失眠，只好上网看新闻，读读朋友的 Blog 。
不知不觉，原来已经单身两年了。
两年前的五月，我和妳说再见。没想到从此以后，大家都没见过面。
这两年里，做了许多事情，留下许多足迹。
有快乐的，有愚蠢的，也有些值得回忆的。
想告诉妳，我还在听周杰伦的歌；
想告诉妳，我不时还在看周星弛；
想告诉妳，我还是支持着Man U；
想告诉妳，我比从前更爱打羽球；
不过，事过境迁，也许没有这个必要了.....

Sportura !

2007-05-20T12:59:00.000+08:00

病了三天，星期五是大感冒，刚巧 Ray 升请客，Adrian 也因为生日请吃 Durian Prata ，结果 miss 掉这千载难逢的机会，真 sianz! 大感冒过后就是头痛，痛了两天，做什么都没心情。应该是睡眠不足的关系，再加上步入中年，不象以前那么 fit 了，是时候培养早睡早起的好习惯。

开始工作以后都想拥有一个比较成熟比较 class 的手表，旧的 DKNY 和 Casio 都不能派上用场。结果上个星期天在 Bugis 的一间小店买了一只手表，属于 Seiko Sportura 系列之一。第一眼看到就爱不释手，它的设计很精细很特别，看起来也蛮 sporty 的，原价大概是 SGD800 ，经过一番讨价还价后（一下子而已，因为不会讲价），以 SGD602 成交。虽然折扣了不少，不过它还是一生中买过最贵的东西。之前买过最贵的是去年的 Sony 6.1 mega pixels CyberShot camera，大约SGD550，没想到一年后我就刷新记录。希望这个记录可以保持多几年，不想在不久的将来宣告破产。
还有，它的 leather strap 可以换成 metal 的，够 flexible ，真的真的很喜欢。它算是我第一只认真去买的手表，我找了好久才找到，DKNY 那只是 colleague 送的，Casio 那只是贪便宜，才SGD50 ，相差好远。

5 lessons for Corporate Life

2007-05-19T13:26:00.000+08:00

LESSON 1
A junior manager, a senior manager and their boss are on their way to a meeting.
On their way through a park, they come across a wonder lamp.
They rub the lamp and a ghost appears.
The ghost says, 'Normally, one is granted three wishes but as you are three, I will allow one wish each'
So the eager senior manager shouted, 'I want the first wish. I want to be in the Bahamas, on a fast boat and have no worries.' Pfufffff, and he was gone.
Now the junior manager could not keep quiet and shouted 'I want to be in Florida with beautiful girls, plenty of food and cocktails.'
Pfufffff, and he was also gone.
The boss calmly said, 'I want these two idiots back in the office after lunch at 12.35pm.'

*MORAL OF THE STORY IS: ' ALWAYS ALLOW THE BOSSES TO SPEAK FIRST'*

LESSON 2
Standing in front of a shredder with a piece of paper in his hand.
'Listen,' said the CEO, 'this is a very sensitive and important document, and my secretary has left. Can you make this thing work?'
'Certainly,' said the young executive.
He turned the machine on, inserted the paper, and pressed the start button.
'Excellent, excellent!' said the CEO as his paper disappeared inside the shredder machine.
'I just need one copy.'

*LESSON II - NEVER, NEVER ASSUME THAT YOUR BOSS KNOWS EVERYTHING.*

LESSON 3
An American and a Japanese were sitting on the plane on the way to LA
When the American turned to the Japanese and asked, 'What kind of -ese are you?'
The Japanese confused, replied, 'Sorry but I don't understand what you mean.'
The American repeated, 'What kind of -ese are you?'
Again, the Japanese was confused over h is question.
The American, now irritated, then yelled, 'What kind of -ese are you... Are you a Chinese, Japanese, Vietnamese!, etc......???'
The Japanese then replied, 'Oh, I am a Japanese.'
A while later the Japanese turned to the American and asked what kind of 'key' was he.
The American, frustrated, yelled, 'What do you mean what kind of -kee' am I ?!'
The Japanese said, 'Are you a Yankee, donkee, or monkee?'

*LESSON III - NEVER INSULT ANYONE.*

LESSON 4
There were these 4 guys, a Russian, a German, an American and a French, who found this small genie bottle. When they rubbed the bottle, a genie appeared.
Thankful that the 4 guys had released him out of the bottle, he said, 'Next to you all are 4 swimming pools, I will give each of you a wish. When you run towards the pool and jump, you shout what you want the pool of water to become, then your wish will come true.'
The French wanted to start. He ran towards the pool, jumped and shouted'WINE'.
The pool immediately changed into a pool of wine. The Frenchman was so happy swimming and drinking from the pool.
Next is the Russian's turn, he did the same and shouted, 'VODKA' and immersed himself into a pool of vodka.
The German was next and he jumped and shouted, 'BEER'. He was so contented with his beer pool.
The last is the American. He was running towards the pool when suddenly he steps on a banana peel. He slipped towards the pool and shouted,
'SHIT!!!!!!!.........'

*LESSON IV - THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU SAY SOMETHING,
BECAUSE SOMETIMES ACCIDENTS DO HAPPEN.*

LESSON 5
The organs of the body were having a meeting, trying to decide who was in charge. Each organ took a turn to speak up:

Brain......... I should be in charge because I run all body functions.
Blood........ I should be in charge because I circulate oxygen for the brain.
Stomach... I should be in charge because I process food to the brain.
Legs......... I should be in charge because I take the brain where it Wants to go.
Eyes......... I should be in charge because I let the brain see where it's going.
Asshole.....I should be in charge because I get rid of your waste.

All the other parts laughed so hard and this made the asshole very mad.
To prove his point, the asshole immediately slammed tightly closed and stayed that way for 6 days, refusing to rid the body of any waste whatsoever.

Day 1 - Brain got a terrible headache and cried out for relief
Day 2 - Stomach got bloated and began to ache terribly
Day 3 - Legs got cramps and became unstable
Day 4 - Eyes became watery and vision became blurred
Day 5 - Blood became toxic and poisoned the body
Day 6 -The other organs agreed to let the asshole be in charge.

*MORAL OF THE STORY: NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE, OR HOW IMPORTANT YOU THINK YOU ARE, YOU WILL FIND THAT IT IS ALWAYS THE ASSHOLE THAT IS IN CHARGE.

Rude Singaporeans?

2007-05-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

今天是劳动节，不需要劳动，就躲在家里懒一番，想了很多事情，却写不出来。
偶然在马来西亚的《中国报》里发现一个有趣的 Blog 叫作 rudesingaporeans.blogspot.com，讲的是新加坡人种种缺德的行为，如无礼、怕输、怕死等，而写的人却是新加坡人自己。
其实，新加坡人很幸福，有一个干净的家园，还有很爱他们的政府。也许身在福中不知福，平时遇到小小的麻烦和不爽，很多都会大肆 complain 和计较，非要 100% 完美不可。新加坡已经是很不错了，为什么那些人还要 complain 这个，怕那个？有些甚至还逃兵役、移民，这狭窄的生活空间，真是道尽人生百态。也许，因为他们没有在马来西亚生活过，不知道什么是幸福，just take it for granted 。
在新加坡做了 6 年的外劳 a.k.a. 二等公民，亲眼看到这里的政府如何疼爱自己的人民，如何为新加坡的未来铺路，心里是多么的痛和羡慕。而马来西亚的政府却为了种族利益，自己人打自己人，贪污盗窃，连国家的未来都给丢了。说什么 2020 年宏愿，就算再等 100 年，马来西亚还会是老样子，四个字——不思进取。现在，连印尼、泰国和越南都开始赶上来了，100 年后，马来西亚会不会是东南亚最落后的国家？哎......

Evolution of Impossible Is Nothing

2007-04-28T16:02:00.000+08:00

The recent Adidas' global campaign has caught my attention. You will know what I mean when you walk into the Adidas stores. The way they advertise is very unique and creative and I like it so much. I've linked some of the athlete stories from www.adidas.com to my blog. The athletes were invited to an art studio with a toy box of art supplies and presented their inspiring stories in their own way.
After telling their stories, they start selling their products:
"Want to play football like David Beckham? Or just improve your game? Whatever goal you're trying to achieve, choosing the right gear is a great place to start."
Well, I don't think it would help as I still can play good badminton with cheaper racquets (not Yonex of course). The difference is very very minor actually.

Another jap series 冗谈じゃない！

2007-04-28T02:33:00.000+08:00

口口声声说着想要幸福的男人不能相信；
信誓旦旦要让某个人幸福的男人更不能相信。

宣告自己很幸福的男人只不过是看不到现实而已；
对，因为看不到现实，所以才能幸福地活着。
那个时候的我，很幸福.....

—— [冗谈じゃない！] 第一集

华丽なる一族

2007-04-26T01:21:00.001+08:00

Just finished this jap series [华丽なる一族] last month but haven't written anything about it. It's one of the best jap series I've ever seen. Very touching and encouraging. It has changed the way I see my job and my life. Be positive. Be professional. Be responsible.
It has brought me to a turning point, although I dunno how many turning points I will have in my life, this would be the great one.

To change da future, we must have a dream, at least.

Yet another dream girl whom I always try to find in my life, 长谷川京子. She is 29 but 有气质 and very matured in the series. Sigh, why I'm always attracted to old woman?

He is still my most favourite actor, 木村拓哉. Like him most in another jap series [Pride].

人潮

2007-04-22T19:57:00.000+08:00

刚从 JB 回来，经过 JB custom 时，人潮汹涌，你推我挤，一辆辆的旅游巴士和汽车堵在 causeway ，养精蓄锐准备进入新加坡。
为什么会有那么多人来这个小岛工作和生活呢？这么简单的问题当然不必动脑筋就能回答。如果你是想追求 $$ 和名利，想尝试先进环境的挑战，新加坡是一个不错的地方，你的回报会和努力成正比，只是没有 life 而已。
最近意识到新加坡的人口好像在一夜之间增加了好几倍，尤其是大大小小的 shopping centre 、MRT station 、custom 、甚至 sports hall ，人数多到宁愿呆在家里睡觉也不想出来。早上搭 MRT 时，没有些许的拥挤功夫，休想挤进 MRT 里。最糟糕的是，有些人的家好像离 MRT station 蛮远的，而且好像又很赶时间似的，走得汗流浃背，没理会身边的人的感受，硬硬地挤进 MRT 里，把 MRT 搞得臭气熏天。没办法，MRT 轨道只有一条，train 只有这么多，人却 exponentially 增加，比地球上所有动物还快，不敢想象 5 年后会变成什么样。
另外一个 similar 的现象是，新加坡的 banking & financial services 越来越吃香，bonus 和 increment 拿到 siao，人们就纷纷想转行，就算不适合不喜欢、违背自己当初的梦想也不管。人多不是一件好事，现在以后，要在 banking 有立足之地，必须有过人之处，不然迟早会被淘汰的，因为实在太多人加入banking了，要 outstanding 很不容易。不怕你不做，因为一定会有人要做；不怕你 resign ，因为一定找到人代替你，而且可能薪水要求比你还低，实在残忍。能做的，就是 either 加强自己，or 降低要求。
原来人的本性几千年来没变，那里有好处，那里可以享受物质生活，就搬迁去那里，而我们只不过是现代式的游牧民族。文明社会跟原始社会的不同，只是原始人穿上了西装，讲得一口流利的英语吧了。

世上没有挖不完的金矿，人要求越多，挖得越快，希望新加坡可以居安思危，so that 可以继续成为淘金天堂，我也可以安乐地退休。

写意人生

2007-04-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

看完了Prison Break Season 2 ，觉得没戏看的日子不好过，结果跑去租了新的港剧《写意人生》来看。这是一部轻松的爱情喜剧，开始看了两集就上瘾了，原因只有一个——黎姿。在那部戏里，也许她就是我现在要寻找的女生。
慢慢知道自己喜欢的女生会是怎样的类型，应该是成熟、善良、开朗、独立和智慧型的。有时候，不清楚是自己在寻找缘分，还是缘分正在等着自己。很多人都认为理想和现实是不能共存，必须懂得取舍与平衡。不过始终相信，总有一天会遇到的，即使是在多年以后.....

Tarot Cards - The Chariot

2007-04-10T21:57:00.000+08:00

You are The Chariot

Triumph, Victory, Overcoming Obstacles.

The chariot is one of the most complex cards to define. On its most basic level, it implies war, a struggle, and an eventual, hard-won victory. Either over enemies, obstacles, nature, the beasts inside you, or to just get what you want. But there is a great deal more to it. The charioteer wears emblems of the sun, yet the sign behind this card is the moon. The chariot is all about motion, and yet it is often shown as stationary. It is a union of opposites, like the black and white steeds. They pull in different directions, but must be (and can be!) made to go together in one direction. Control is required over opposing emotions, wants, needs, people, circumstances; bring them together and give them a single direction, your direction. Confidence is also needed and, most especially, motivation. The card can, in fact, indicate new motivation or inspiration, which gets a stagnant situation moving again.

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What would you do?

2007-04-10T00:55:00.000+08:00

Tell me what would you do when

your company has announced 15,000 job-cuts globally?
your investment team big heads and many dealers have tendered their resignation letters?
your department big head who always fights for the employees' benefits have left you?

Would you
start worrying your own future? or
work harder to rescue your company? or
act nothing happen and continue to work as per normal?

I will......of course work harder to rescue my company from the hardship and cannot be so 忘恩负义, haha. Like what David Beckham said last week, "I may not have got through the things I did without the Man Utd manager, the players and the fans. I owe them everything."

Long Weekend

2007-04-08T13:10:00.000+08:00

The long weekend is finishing very soon. Life will be back to normal again. Sianzz, so fast!
It seems that everybody has planned early what to do during the long weekend. Most of them have gone back KL or oversea trip. Left me alone in sg...so cruel.
Bought a book Macro And VBA For Microsoft Excel from Kinokunia at Bugis and spent these 3 days to learn VBA. Not much progression as I'm not a genius in programming. Nevertheless, I believe it would be very helpful in my work to streamline the process. I should have learnt this 3 years ago in the university and now only I know its importance, dunno if it is too late now, sigh.....
Luckily most of my badminton kakis are still in this small island. Play quite frequent these few weeks and can see my body has slimmed down a lot...at least I do utilize my long weekend

走

2007-04-07T01:15:00.000+08:00

人生最痛苦的时候，
就是不知道下一步该怎么走，徘徊在同一个地方，走也不是，留也不是；
就是这段感情该怎么维持下去，跟着同样一个人，爱也不是，恨也不是；
这一次，我该走，还是不走？

再见。优客李林

2007-04-01T02:38:00.000+08:00

刚从《再见。优客李林》回来，这是他们分开 10 年后重聚，在新加坡第一次也是最后一次作的演唱会，也是我第一次去他们的演唱会，感觉意义非凡！本来是没有去的，因为身边好像没有什么人懂得欣赏，刚巧多年没见的大学朋友 Gillian 很喜欢他们，就一拍即合一起去看了，所以这也是第一次和她去看演唱会。
很肯定的，唱 LIVE 的功力，现在的华人歌手没有人可以比得上林志炫。他一出场，只唱了一句就把我整个人 stun 住了。那时候我在怀疑，他的声音怎么可能会比在 CD 里还好听，连续拉高音拉了三个小时，声音还是那么吭亮清晰，真是不得不写个“服”字。之前去过五月天、陈奕迅和陶喆的演唱会都没这种大开眼界的感触，所以看完后心里在想：“幸好有去看，不然就遗憾终生了。”
这场演唱会，真的是赞！只可惜，这是最后一场.....

由于忘了带 camera ，只好拿他们在上海演唱会的照片顶住先。

回魂夜

2007-03-25T15:07:00.000+08:00

超级累的星期天，看看周星驰早期的作品[回魂夜]，整个人轻松起来。

England sucks....

2007-03-25T03:21:00.000+08:00

You won't believe this final score 0-0 when you know it is Israel vs England. As a common sense, England has a lot of good players from elite clubs like Man Utd, Liverpool, Chelsea and Arsenal. Why can't they gel together as a whole to beat the unknown Israelians?
It is totally wasting my time. I should have been sleeping well at this hour. The entire halftime match is really boring and I keep switching to Channel23 to watch the American football, which is rather exciting albeit wild and funny.
What happen to England? The Israelians can even play fluid passings and some good moves while England is reverting to the old play - stupid long ball. The gifted talents like Rooney, Gerrard and Lennon are totally wasted. It's always manager's fault when good players are unable to deliver good results, isn't it? The weakest link (Fat Lampard) in the team is so obvious but the manager still think his belief is right. You ought to know that it's time to change when things go wrong.

(weakest link - Fat Lampard)

Would it be 0-0 if Malaysia play against England? I think it's possible, not kidding. This is the lousiest England I've ever seen....

The manager - pls sack him before too late